Life is over one day at a time

I have an urge to watch Fight Club. Listening to MSI. Sitting at work I have to close and I have to hurry up. I want a candy bar. I want to be raw vegan. No drinking no smoking no caffeine. No car. No personal space. Going to write my books like a beast. Finish the comic in a collaboration. Finish the fucked up screenplay and make more screenplays. Raw vegan. Tomorrow or saturday. Doing some grocery shopping to be raw vegan forever. Yoga and running and weights.

Fuck Ethics

I got a 15 out of 50 on my position paper. It totally pissed me off. Even though I know I was stressed and didn't want to put in the effort. I cannot afford to do this in any other class. I need to make all A's. This may have cost me an A. I am very disappointed in myself. I need to make sure that my life is in order and be in control.
I am really super stressed out right now. I am going to knock out a bunch of things on my to do list and then I am going to run for thirty minutes and then call Bakersfield if he doesn't communicate by then. Breathe Sarah. You can do this. As for the major problem of your mother...well, I'm not sure yet. She did call mama to help you. That was nice. Maybe you can just ask her to live in community housing. hmm. Talk to Danny about this. I mean she does like to use the system. Anyway. I need some space. If caffeine is upping stress level. I think it is. Breathe. Everything's ok. I can fix a lot of things if I take control right now.

the evil dead!

laying beside giraffe. he just saw a dragon fly. goig

3dollarsforsevenmovies

Late for Microeconomics. Not worried about it. Worried about my car. Worried about how my image is not reflected from what I see inside my head. I'm a big deal? Ha. I want to be a big deal.
I want to teach physics, draw comics, write comics, and writes novels all day in a victorian style house with a few kittens. I also want to share sadistic humor. I quit drinking, quit smoking. did not quit coffee. The job that shares my principles is stressing me out. If it's supposed to be a career then maybe I get it. But with no raises in sight or advancement. Maybe that shouldn't matter. I'm going to work harder. But I'm also going to work harder on my books. Getting a comic book class lined up and drawing a lot more. And picking up the guitar. Maybe blueberry will help me. Schoolwork will be worked hard on, too.
I love my blueberry very much. I woke up this morning. Already smiling. Touching him. his back. How did I get someone so beautiful, inside and out? He won't even kill Down's syndrome children. Damn. I'm going to give him another BJJ ASAP.

Zee

Drank a lot last night. Spent my last monies. Smoked probably ten cigarettes. Or less. I quit coffee. I drink chai lattes and green tea lattes probably every other day. I eat less now. Lost five pounds. I want to run everyday. I'm trying to drink more juices. Think I'm going to take a nap. And read The Fountainhead. Going to catch up with Jhonen for now. Thinking of writing installments of new book on facebook.

You are SO good (so far)

Tonight is Saturday. Mom/Maria is not here yet. My phone is off. I'm really horny and want to drink. I'm going to dress sexy and keep it in my pants. It's going to be hard. No pun intended. If Bakersfield talks in German I'm going to jump on him. Ok, Health stats: Haven't drank in a week. I may have a couple tonight. And I mean a couple. I'm trying to up wheatgrass shots and veggie juices. Bakersfield got a juicer. I drank two 16oz coffees today, everyday. No smoking except two cigs when I was drunk last week.
I got an old camera from 1973. Yashica, baby. I have to exercise more. Trying to drink more apple cider vinegar. Trying to spoon feed self some molasses because of high iron and potassium content.
I'm going to try to volunteer at SPCA. I'm thinking it will up happiness meter. E.L. is a 5 right now. That's pretty good. I'm into mulit-green kombucha again. Really glad I hooked up with Bakersfield. I need to get a multi-vitamin. (vegan of course) I gotta poop. bye.

Jody Time!!!!

I didn't quit coffee. I did jog today. Felt great. I think there is too much caffeine in my body. Still need to declutter life. I'm going to make a list of stuff to do. Like borrow Precious. And decorate house more Halloween style. Because there are sales of Halloween stuff at the store. Write book. I feel good. Mentally. I was a Dragon!!!
My mom is moving in with me. Whoa. Checking out places downtown for March. Gotta fix bike. Hopefully mom doesn't have any shiz. Bored of this now. Bye.